well....
theres no way for me to get anything out any more
no one understands
or wants to listen to me right now
i have been through so much
more then any one
brook lauren hockey born the 3rd of november 1995 and this is my life...
i have two brothers ken, born 31st december 1996
and dakota, born 1st of march 2004
my mum, 19th of april
and a step dad 15th o january
i had to grow up so i was like 13 at the age of 6 so i coud watch my autistic brother while mum was out working, she never really had that much money as a single parent.
mum and dad broke up when i was 2 and my brother was 1.
i wish i could go back and see my father but i have heard so many things about him and i need to find these things out for my self.
i have had to live carrying excess weigth on my shoulders for the past 13 years of my life.
the last 5 have been the hardest having to pack up and move to here, being up here and leaving friends and family behind me was one of the hardest things so far, espiecally losing brooke kilpatrick broke my heart and i love you where ever you are, and i miss you hoping to find you one day. moving to a new school to PCS i thought was gunna be great its a private so bullying would stop i wouldn't be teased as much i thought but it just remained the same.
um.... oh
being at public schools for the first 2 and a half years proved fatal and hard to get through being there with my brother ken who is autistic i was teased as i stood up for him like his guardian angel, i love him to pieces and it brakes my heart when i see him teased, at our cambo the public school we went to up here for 2 and a half years ken got that aggresive that they would lock him up in the basket ball court which ws only making him agresiver i would un out of class jump the fence and try to calm him down of course they would always go off at me for doing so but what do guardian angels do ? he broke a teachers arm one day as a kid who was normal was teasing him so ken threw a chair which missed the kid and headed straight for the teacher, ken was expelled that day and thats when we first got separted into different schools i am now at pcs and ken has travelled around going from cambo to york to glenmore to kurrumbe the best school for ken yet !
he injoys it there which is good to know but am i injoying my school pcs it is a tricky question as stuff changes every day and i am really getting sick of living this life . i have thought of packing up, finding my father and moving in, but i could never leave my brothers here without me, yes i have another brother dakota born the first week we moved up here very exiting he has selective mutism and asperges and ken has adhd hdhde asperges and many more, they are both under autisic spectrums.
people say they have it bad but my brothers they just the start my mum also has 7 brain tumors fibromialgia a bad heart conition and i think that is all, but living in my family isn't an ordinary life, barlely do i get to go out or do anything with friends coz i am stuck at home babysiting or doing chores you know usal stuff.
so yer my life is hecktic
but god only puts it ways for reasons and i guess i'm the guardian for my brothers which is why i'm here so yer...